It's been almost a week since I came back. Strange feeling it is to be back home. Sometimes I wonder if it's really home. What is home? Where is my home? Am I really home? Do I really feel at home? I always feel a bit "out of it" when I come back, even though this is where my family is. It doesn't help that I find uncertainty greeting me everywhere in my new journey. Being a student again is quite a new thing to me, after oh so many years.... I wonder how I'd fare. But that's life, isn't it? You're never sure of anything, and you should never take things for granted. Still, it's hard sometimes. You just get used to doing things certain way and you think it'll always stay this way.

So naturally, it's a bit difficult to get into gear when one's distracted, but I've expected this to happen so I guess I just have to take things slowly. And the Christmas/New Year holiday puts me on holiday mood, so I don't feel like doing anything at all! Everytime I come back to Vancouver I feel sleepy. Almost like hibernating...

Back to this thing called "home". As I was pondering on it, I was suddenly reminded of the verses in the book of Matthew, chapter 6:

19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I guess home is kind of like heart, so I asked myself, where are my treasures? If I've stored them in heaven then I wouldn't be so worried about where is home, eh? Or all the other things in life. That was comforting to me and even though the hurdles in life still await me, somehow they don't seem as scary. My biggest treasure here on earth is probably the people that I love. So home is everywhere with them in it.

Gee... my first entry in like... 9 months?? The past few months my brain always felt jammed when I tried to pen something down. Hopefully it'll be better. Trying to polish my brain so it's ready for some serious workout the next little while...